Saturday, February 28, 2009

That's a tasty burger

Every now and then I get on a hamburger kick. Twice in 2 weeks I have been craving a hamburger and so I tried 2 new places that recently opened up here. The first was Mighty Fine Burger and the other was Karl Jr's. Mighty Fine was first and while I think the quality of meat was excellent, I think the burger was a little messy for me. I guess that's my fault because I like everything on them....except ketchup. The fries were pretty good and they went well with the burger but I think I might have preferred that burger just with the meat and cheese only. Skip all the other stuff because I think the star of that burger is the meat. It was also a little pricey But I guess worth it for the quality of meat. On a scale of 1-10, I would give it an 8.

Karls - I had this burger today and I thought it was excellent! It had a great taste even though I could tell the quality of meat was not as good as Mighty Fine. But just over all to me it tasted better and I had everything on this one as well and it all went perfectly together. I enjoyed this burger to the very last bite! The French Fries were delicious and I completely enjoyed my meal. On a scale of 1-10, I give this burger a 9.5!

My only concern was that I ate the Karls burger while in an extremely starving state. My morning started at 5:30 and I only had a banana for breakfast because we were rushing to get to San Antonio by 8 for Hannah's soccer game. Gary could not come since he works Saturdays. I had minimal coffee and was exhausted and spent half the day in San Antonio in freezing, windy conditions. The soccer field parking lots were white rock and dirt paved lots and the extreme wind caused nothing but dust and dirt and debris to be flying in the air and I could not even tolerate it and had to sit in the car for 2 soccer games with Bella while Hannah played her games. Then we had to endure 7 mile bumper to bumper traffic just to get to McDonald's for a 2nd breakfast ( only the girls ate ) in between the 2 games and needless to say I had a horrible, horrible day. I was miserable the entire time. Are you playing your violin yet??? Returning to Austin and eating that burger felt like Heaven to me. So Karls may have had an unfair advantage! I guess the only way to know for sure is to eat them both again!


ps - Thank you to my wonderful father for accompanying me today.....he let's me be grumpy and he let's me complain and NEVER ever, not even once makes me feel bad for doing so. Aren't dads the best?

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Here or There

My mind is playing a serious game of back and forth here. Should we do this? Or that? Shall we stay here or go there? Is she too young? If we wait, will she be too old? Why? Why? Why? Why is it so hard for me to just decide and move on. Why do there have to be so many scenarios to consider? Wouldn't it be grand....if I could just decide. Is there a wrong and a right? I just don't want to make the wrong choice I guess and there ya go. I think I just answered my own question with my questions.

Me: Thanks!
Myself - No problem...anytime.

Dear me I must be losing my mind. Or maybe I'm just trying to find it. Either way some days I'm coming and others I'm going so I guess it's hard to tell. Sometimes up is down and down is up and if you look all around you might just get dizzy.
Ha Ha......ouch. I'm sore......loved pilates! It made me feel in places that I didn't know could feel. Oh ......wow I had muscles there......didn't know. Now I know.

Gary wants to go away for our 5 year anniversary and I simply can not decide what to do. Does that mean I don't really want to go? Is it worth it? Should we just save that money instead? The Beach? Tennessee? MS? Florida? See...... I can't decide. He says he does not care where we go as long as it's somewhere that our kids are not. That's mean. No it's not! I mean we LOVE our kids but we also enjoy being around just each other too. We mostly just want to relax and hang out and just have a good time and do whatever and I already said relax but that's what we want to do. What to do, what not to do? Decisions, decisions.

There is a list, about 20 feet long, of things that have yet to be decided on. I guess somethings need extra thought and others need hardly any and I just can't decide about some of them right now. I mean with somethings I can make up my mind like that! And like that.....sometimes I can't. I did figure out I have a hard time figuring out what to do sometimes . I want to do what's best for us because the best means I made a good choice. I don't want to say.....oh man, we should have done this or that instead of that or this. Ya know? So you see, that is the problem and it's not like it's a tragedy or like I have to decide if I'd rather save my left or my right hand so in the grand scheme of things I guess it will be okay. Right? or Wrong? Decisions are what they are unless they aren't and so we must make them or not make them but either way you have to live with or with out the consequences of those decisions or non decisions. So there it is. Or is it?

Do you feel sorry for what Gary has to put up with??
: )

Monday, February 16, 2009

Numinous Awe

I bought this book The Complete C.S Lewis Signature Classics and have been anxiously waiting to read it. It has about 7 of his books all in one, two of which I have already read ( Mere Christianity, A Grief Observed) but finally was able to start it and I chose to start with The Problem of Pain. I am on the 2nd chapter and I am already blown away by it. Blown Away. I do not understand why everyone has not read C.S Lewis. I think it should be required reading when becoming a Christian. He has the most perfect ability to make some of the most valid questions a Christian or even non christian might have and explaining it to it's core in a way that our minds can grasp. Well at least he does this for me. If ever I could use the word brilliant, on him would it be most appropriate. I can't even seem to move past this one paragraph because I am just in awe of his writing. It's weird. I could almost say I love this man and I don't even know him. Well not physically anyway. I kind of do feel like I know him. I think I might be obsessed with him...haha. It's amazing to me that a writer or anyone for that matter could have this much of an impact on me. The book that I just finished ended with the last few moments of C.S Lewis life and I actually cried. Real Tears. He's just a brilliant man.
Here are the last few paragraphs that I just read that just has me in awe again of him and his writing. He's trying to explain GODS power and that saying in scripture that with GOD all things are possible.

It is common enough, he says, in argument with an unbeliever, to be told that God, if He existed and were good, would do this or that;and then,if we point out that the proposed action is impossible, to be met with the retort "But I thought God was supposed to be able to do anything". This raises the whole question of impossibility.

His Om-nipotence means power to do all that is intrinsically possible, not to do the intrinsically impossible. You may attribute miracles to Him, but not nonsense. This is no limit to His power. If you chose to say, "God can give a creature free will and at the same time withhold free will from it", you have not succeeded in saying anything about God;meaningless combinations of words do not suddenly acquire meaning simply because we prefix to them the two other words "God can". It remains true that all things are possible with God:the intrinsic impossibilities are not things but nonentities. It is no more possible for God than for the weakest of His creatures to carry out both of the two mutually exclusive alternatives; not because His power meets an obstacle, but because nonsense remains nonsense even when we talk it about God.


He also says - The absolutely impossible may also be called the intrinsically impossible because it carries its impossibility within itself, instead of borrowing it from other impossibilities which in turn depend on others. It has no unless clause attached to it. It is impossible under all conditions and in all worlds and for all agents. "All agents" here includes God himself.

Isn't that good stuff?? I can't wait to finish the book.

Sunday, February 15, 2009

The Sack Lunches

This is an email that was forwarded and I don't usually read forwards much less forward them. For some reason I read this one and it really struck me. I admire so much men and women who serve this country and basically write a blank check to the United States of America in the sum or their life! I don't know if it's a true story or a made up story but I'm sure things like this happen all the time out of the generous hearts of men/women.

The Sack Lunches

I put my carry-on in the luggage compartment and sat down in my
assigned
seat. It was going to be a long flight. 'I'm glad I have a good book
to
read Perhaps I will get a short nap,' I thought.

Just before take-off, a line of soldiers came down the aisle and
filled
all the vacant seats, totally surrounding me. I decided to start a
conversation. 'Where are you headed?' I asked the soldier seated
nearest
to me.

'Petawawa. We'll be there for two weeks for special training, and then
we're being deployed to Afghanistan

After flying for about an hour, an announcement was made that sack
lunches
were available for five dollars. It would be several hours before we
reached the east, and I quickly decided a lunch would help pass the
time..

As I reached for my wallet, I overheard soldier ask his buddy if he
planned to buy lunch. 'No, that seems like a lot of money for just a
sack
lunch. Probably wouldn't be worth five bucks. I'll wait till we get to
base '

His friend agreed.

I looked around at the other soldiers. None were buying lunch. I
walked
to the back of the plane and handed the flight attendant a fifty dollar
bill. 'Take a lunch to all those soldiers.' She grabbed my arms and
squeezed tightly. Her eyes wet with tears, she thanked me. 'My son
was a
soldier in Iraq ; it's almost like you are doing it for him.'

Picking up ten sacks, she headed up the aisle to where the soldiers
were
seated. She stopped at my seat and asked, 'Which do you like best -
beef
or chicken?'

'Chicken,' I replied, wondering why she asked. She turned and went to
the
front of plane, returning a minute later with a dinner plate from first
class. 'This is your thanks.'

After we finished eating, I went again to the back of the plane,
heading
for the rest room. A man stopped me. 'I saw what you did. I want to
be
part of it. Here, take this.' He handed me twenty-five dollars.

Soon after I returned to my seat, I saw the Flight Captain coming down
the
aisle, looking at the aisle numbers as he walked, I hoped he was not
looking for me, but noticed he was looking at the numbers only on my
side
of the plane. When he got to my row he stopped, smiled, held out his
hand,
an said, 'I want to shake your hand.'

Quickly unfastening my seatbelt I stood and took the Captain's hand.
With a booming voice he said, 'I was a soldier and I was a military
pilot.
Once, someone bought me a lunch. It was an act of kindness I never
forgot.' I was embarrassed when applause was heard from all of the
passengers.

Later I walked to the front of the plane so I could stretch my legs.
A man who was seated about six rows in front of me reached out his
hand,
wanting to shake mine. He left another twenty-five dollars in my palm.

When we landed I gathered my belongings and started to deplane.
Waiting just inside the
airplane door was a man who stopped me, put something in my shirt
pocket,
turned, and walked away without saying a word. Another twenty-five
dollars!

Upon entering the terminal, I saw the soldiers gathering for their
trip to
the base. I walked over to them and handed them seventy-five dollars.
'It
will take you some time to reach the base. It will be about time for a
sandwich. God Bless You.'

Ten young men left that flight feeling the love and respect of their
fellow travelers. As I walked briskly to my car, I whispered a prayer
for
their safe return. These soldiers were giving their all for our
country.
I could only give them a couple of meals.

It seemed so little...

A veteran is someone who, at one point in his life,wrote a blank check

made payable to 'The United States of America' for an amount of 'up to
and
including my life.'

That is Honor, and there are way too many people in this country who
no
longer understand it.'

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Valentines Day


Every year when Valentines day rolls around I have such ambivalent feelings towards it. I mean, shouldn't vday be everyday? I also have a hard time thinking of it as a guys holiday. I mean do guys want a valentines gift? Or could they care less? In the past I have done things like make Gary some chocolate covered strawberries but I don't think I have ever bought him anything. Oh, except one time I did get him some white boxers that said I love you all over them in red lettering. BUT HE HATES THEM AND NEVER WEARS THEM! Haha. And they were even from Banana Republic. So I don't know, am I lame for not getting all into it and not wanting to go out and buy him something? What do you do for your significant other? Is it a big deal?

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Okay a few more

So after reading so many different people's 25 things, I realized mine were like skimming the top layer of a many layered cake. So I wanted to add a few more a' la Sara wingfield. So this is the 2nd layer.

1. I am a hard person to get to know. I don't feel like many people know the Real me. I don't let my guard down very easily or at all and because of this it is hard for me to form friendships. I mean, real close friendships. The person that knows me best is my husband and even he might not know ALL of me.

2. I'm not the most confident person but I have learned that my worth comes from GOD not from any other human being. This has helped me to be a little more confident and to take more chances when talking to people or in doing things.

3. It really bothers me that I never went to college and earned a degree. I realize now that it's not too late and I can pretty much do anything I set my mind to (again that confidence has come from Christ)but I'm also starting to wonder about this whole college thing. I think it's a scam and they just want to brain wash you at age 18 while you're still young and naive about the world. Yet I do see its benefit.

4. I am filled with so many ideas and I want to be the kind of person that brings those ideas to light. I don't want to just dream about doing things. I want to make them happen. I want to own my own business and I have it all planned out in my head.

5. I whole heartedly believe in the power of prayer. I try to spend a lot of my day talking to GOD. Praying to him, thanking him, praising him. It helps me keep a peace of mind. Everything I do, I try to do it in his name. When I get away from this( and it happens A LOT) I realize that's when the anxiety sets in.

6. By nature I am more on the pessimistic side. My husband truly taught me and shows me what it's like to be more of an optimist. By nature he is optimistic. I have found that together we completely balance each other out. It takes a lot of effort but more and more I'm learning how to choose to be optimistic. I may not naturally look at the bright side but it does not mean the bright side is not there. And it doesn't mean I can't or shouldn't see it. I have to choose what's not the easiest and most natural. For me, choosing to be positive , grows me more than settling for what comes easy.

7. I love out going people. I'm drawn to them immediately because they have something I so desperately want. In fact I'm drawn to people who have qualities so opposite of me. I'm so shy...it's painful. But I am getting better with that confidence thing. Again it comes down to making a choice to live "in" what comes natural or choosing to grow.

8. I don't like to share. What's mine is mine and what's my husbands is also mine. It's a great motto. Good thing my husband is a sharer even though he does not share this philosophy. Nothing bugs me more than having to give him something of mine....LIKE FOR INSTANCE MY ALLERGY MEDS. My allergy meds are like gold....go buy your own. Love you babe. I do realize that this is a horrible quality and I do work on it. I do share...I'm just saying I don't like to.


9. Even though people scare me. I like people. I like knowing about people, I like hearing about their lives, I enjoy hearing peoples struggles and how they overcome them. I LOVE SMART PEOPLE. I like people that have something to teach me or that can make me think. I like people that are not afraid to challenge me. I like people that have turned something ordinary into something extraordinary. I like people that use their talents,gifts, abilities for GOD. I love people that follow their dreams and make things happen. I like people that make themselves happy and don't rely on other people for it.

10. I'm a very independent person. I moved out of my parents home right after I graduated high school and I moved to Dallas and 100% financially supported myself. (aside from when I went through a divorce and lived with my parents for a little while which is something I really really hate about myself) I have always supported and depended on myself. I don't like asking for help or money and I don't like depending on other people for my life. One of the hardest things for me about being a stay home mom is that I don't support myself financially. Yet I understand that what I am contributing to my girls and hubby far outweighs any income I could be making. BUT I don't want anything just handed to me because I don't like the feeling of being in debt to someone or giving someone the power to control me or make me feel inadequate or to be able to use what they do for me against me.

But I'm not bragging

Uno dos tres qatro cinco seis ocho nocho nueve diez! Haha.... Sorry I just think that is the funniest thing. That's how Bella counts to 10 in spanish...and she is so proud of herself. That sweet little thing makes my heart smile. But I'm not bragging.

Gary has been after me to update that we are NOT getting rid of my car after all. No, it was not because I said I was going to cry, it was because it just makes more sense financially to have the maintenance work it requires than to try to trade it in and be all crazy. So it's staying with us. And yes, I am smiling all though I would have been quite all right had we had to trade it in. Sometimes Gary does things or wants to do things with out thinking it all the way through...he just focuses on one aspect of the problem but together we were able to think about this very thoroughly and are 100% confident in our choice. It feels so good when a problem arises and we are able to tackle it together. I must say we are a great pair. But I'm not bragging.

Our 5 year anniversary is fast approaching and we are hopefully going to go somewhere alone! Yay. I am so excited and so looking forward to this. We do want to be as frugal as possible but still do something nice and relaxing. More than likely though we will have to celebrate it in March a whole month early just because it will be easy to travel while Hannah is on spring break. Tennessee is still in the back of my mind but so is going back to FL. where we got married and hanging out on the beach for a few days. I know I already said it but I can't wait. We are so fortunate to be able to do this. But I'm not bragging.

I am looking into taking a pilates class and was wondering if anyone who might read this might have any useful info on the matter. My current exersice routine is not cutting it. I have grown immune to the treadmill and for some reason am putting on weight even though I exercise. So maybe I need to switch it up a bit and incorporate 1-2 days of something different. ... I don't know....at this point I think I am thinking out loud. But I do want to trim up a bit and not just do cardio anymore. If we're going to the beach in a month or so I definitley need to get bathing suit ready but am confident I could do it if I really put my mind to it and hopefully look reasonably good for being 33! But I assure you I'm not bragging.

Friday, February 6, 2009

It's so hard to say goodbye

I am so sad today. We have to get rid of my car that I love so much. I could cry.

Monday, February 2, 2009

Blah blah blah

I keep meaning to blog but I really have nothing to blog about. I mean nobody wants to hear me complain about things worth or not worth complaining about and nobody wants to hear me brag about things worth or not worth bragging about. I'm sure no one wants to hear the latest thing Bella is doing or the funny things Hannah has said or the latest thing Gary has done to make me laugh or cry. Oh which reminds me of something that I actually think is worth saying because it is so absolutely SO the way things go. My husband has by no action/intention of his own lost 10 pounds in the last 2-3 weeks. WHAT???? And I have found about 5 of them. Sooo not happy about that. Anyway back to not knowing what to blog about. I've started 3 different posts in the last 7 days or so...only to not post it because I figure it's boring or it's lame or it's blah blah blah.
Sometimes I feel like that's what I'm saying. Blah blah blah blah blah blah blah. Ya know? But things are good. No real complaints. Excited/nervous about a church project. Excited/hesitant about our small group. Excited/anxious about starting my desk remodel project. Oh... which i have bought new handles for. Yay....I can't wait to get started on that.